Sometimes I get anxious just thinking about everything that I want to do. I want to do so much, yet days are so short, weeks go by so fast and years just seem to be flying by.
Sometimes I wonder, why are we given so much motivation, so much drive and so much passion, when we might never have time to answer to all of those needs within this life span.
I think about it and I quiver. I really do. My hands are shaking from it right now.
Right now, I’m just trying to tame this feeling inside me. I have young children now, and I should be focused on them. Only them. They deserve it.
“Don’t worry about it now; you have your whole life ahead of you”
Makes sense. I’m trying to convince myself of that.
How do you make it big without making your children pay the price? Is it possible to be a great mother and have a successful career all at the same time?
I’m seeking answers.
When I seek, I usually find. But before finding, I learn, I learn a lot.
Right now I’m still learning. I’ve learned that not many will want the best for you. Not many, if any, can be really happy for you. Genuinely, honestly, transparently happy for you.
One has to be in a very peaceful and balanced mind set, to be able to truly want the best for you and help you get there. It’s not that people are bad intentioned, it’s just that, they might not be there just yet. It takes a lot to want the best for someone as much as you want it for yourself.
While seeking for answers, I have to ask questions. My questions, such as this one, expose my weaknesses. My exposed weaknesses attract predators. Such is the law of nature.
People tend to use other people as stepping stones to get to where they want to get. I don’t mind being a stepping stone as long as you will turn around, and lend a hand to pull me up, once you’re up there. There seems to be more stepping, than pulling.
Be true to yourself, don’t get distracted, focus on what you want for yourself and not what others want for you. You’re idea of success, happiness, love or wealth can differ from another’s.
Decide what you want. Then go for it. Don’t wait. Time is passing by, oh so quickly.
Baby just woke up.
5 responses to “Stepping Stones”
Lovely post, the last part cheered me up 🙂
Glad I could help! Thank you for reading 🙂
Julie, I love this post on so many levels. Can we virtually hold hands and do this together? What is it that you desire and how old are your child/ren?
I have three girls, 4 years old, 18 months old and 6 months old. Life is really hectic. I’m an overachiever trying to take a break and focus on my children, but I feel this urge inside me. An urge to plan, to do more, to reach new levels. I’m torn in many levels. I feel like I wan to plan and do, and at another level I feel I should be grateful for what I have and let things roll.
I thought I had my hands full. I have two boys, 6 and 3.
I think we are quite alike. I feel EXACTLY the same.