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Just a regular Saturday night thought.

Perhaps the time has come for me to start speaking from my heart. So much to say, so much to explain, but how to find the words? How to find the words to describe something that is undefinable. How to use man made words to describe what man is made of.

I’m going to try but perhaps it will lose some of its highness while translated into words. If you are reading this, try to maintain an open mind. In the end, if you truly understand the concepts explained and if you can bring yourself to this dimension of thought, beyond the shadow of a doubt, all of your desires will be granted.

Here we will speak of things beyond man and his material world. We are going to talk about the source of man, the source of life. Let’s agree from the start on what to call it. Some call it energy; others call it spirit, but most call it God.

Let’s start with God. What is God? Well to start off it’s a three letter word. I don’t think anyone can disagree till now. Then if said, it becomes a sound. Waves traveling in the air, just like any sound, waves of energy in the form of vibrations.

What is matter?

A chair, a table, my face… all essentially made from the same elements, Atoms, neurons and electrons in movement. It is that movement and the frequency of that vibration that makes these three tangible.

The only difference between sound and tangible matter is the vibrational frequency they’re on. Even our thoughts consist of the same thing, but differ from sound and tangible matter by having their own vibrational frequency. Basically, from the chair, to the sound of a squeaky chair, to what you think of the chair…it’s all the same.

Your thoughts exist, just as the chair does.

In order for your thoughts to become tangible, all we need is a shift in the energy controlling the frequency of the vibrations. Good thing this process is not instant, or else every thought that passed our minds would manifest itself into a tangible reality.

So how can one transform their thought, into reality?

Sure I have my theories, but today is June 14,2014 and I’m still in the process of understanding it all.





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Hockey vs Hormones

Kids are asleep and Jack’s watching the game.

This morning when I changed A3’s diaper, half a pretzel came out of it. How did it get there? Probably A2’s doing. I felt really bad, imagine spending the night with a sharp edged piece of Pretzel in your underwear.pretzel

I’ve had my loved ones worry about me after the last post Face your fears and look inside. There’s nothing to worry about, I think I’m on the right track by being conscious of it all.  It being how I feel, what I think…

We’re all pretty fragile if you think about it. What are emotions? Emotions are a direct result of non-other than chemistry, hormones and neurotransmitters …

“It’s normal, you just had three kids”

Yes it’s normal that my body is out of balance and that it leaves me feeling anxious, and out of my usual self. It might be normal, but I don’t want it. I want to be in control of my own emotions and feelings.

I better learn to do what I need to do before menopause comes along with 5 times more chemical imbalances and makes me go completely insane for good. If you’ve ever felt cranky or moody because of your period cycle, because you’ve been overworked or because of lack of sleep, then you’re in the exact same boat as me, letting your body influence your mood.

Since men naturally don’t experience many drastic hormonal shifts in their life time, they are more stable in this perspective. I look at Jack, and seems like all he needs to relax and unwind is watching a good game of Hockey.

We went to a game last Saturday; it practically felt like a religious gathering.  21 273 people gathered, uniting their thoughts and positive energy towards the same goal and chanting is unison… If Hockey matters to these people as much as is matters to Jack, then it practically is a religion. In the end isn’t it the role of religion to bring beings to peace, tame their worries and bring them closer together?

This is what I was thinking about during the game… then I started staring at the building’s structure and started to worry about its stability and where we should head in case of an emergency…

Do we ever stop worrying?!

All this to say, I am now conscious of the effect of physical life events on my inner self and I want to gain full control of it. I want to be who I am no matter what hormonal phase of my life I’m in, no matter how much sleep I’ve had and no matter how much stress this life throws my way.

How? Not sure yet …

But I’ll find a way.

P.S A great win for our team tonight. Extra yey for me!

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